I used to think I had to be everything to everybody. That to add value to the lives of chiropractors and patients that I had to have all the answers and all the steps to success. I held back in lauching a movement and program I was born to lead. I took the success report from the lives of others personally both in comparison and in blame. Despite my office floor overflowing with people and my message box full with questions and comments, I withdrew, afraid I wasnt enough, afraid I would over promise and under deliver, afraid someone may blame me when it didn't work for them, afraid what people might think if I shared what I was TRULY thinking and feeling. I held myself back, I denied my purpose because I was selfish. I was unable to deal with people not liking me, with conflict and with heading out of my comfort zone to challenge a part of myself I had yet to test.
20 weeks ago, I delivered Nova. Into our arms, standing in my bathroom. After less than an hour of labor, she was ready to come and it was ME who wouldn't allow it. It was ME, who stood in the way of the power of Innate. It was ME, that suffered because of resistance. And then, I gave IN. I gave into the power that directs my every breath, my every move, makes and births my babies, ideas and dreams. I birthed Nova when the hurricane of pain and contraction in my body and life was strong enough that all I could hear was the voice of Innate. I listened, and when she was delivered, so was I.
FOR 20 weeks, I have stayed in this state of mental clarity, love and urgency of action. I have the power, YOU have the power, to discover what is INNATELY RIGHT for you, to birth a new life, to write your own book, to create what you know you were made to.
I will always be postpartum. From this point forward I will always be the version of myself that was forged in the fire of pain, resistance and love. It's fucking ON 2017 and every year after that I am blessed to walk this earth with my family and people.
It is my PURPOSE to be a CATALYST, a waker, a reminder of who you really are. And after you WAKE, it's my PURPOSE to nudge you when you're falling back asleep. Our days are numbered, the hours of our lives and how we choose to invest them are all we really have. The REVOLUTION is brewing. I'm letting my INTENTIONS BE KNOWN.